I wanted to stay what I have been thinking for the past 2 weeks. I am a foster parents for 12 years and for the last 2 years have taken care of family members three children. Bucks County returned the children home because I refused to stay quiet. I never truly understood why these children hurt me more than others. Well over the last 2 weeks I have started to remember everything that I dealt with as a child, and how I was moved 42 times. How I was returned over and over again to my abuser. How I was told by my county worker Gloria G, I should be happy because there are children in worse homes then mine. So do you see why I am fighting for my girls that have been returned home? The workers told me over and over again that they know he abused the children but when I fought for them no one stood by my side. They tell me to be patient they will return to you because he will hurt them. How can they think that or say that. I still get so upset even writing this down. I have text message from these workers. But I stand alone. Please help me. Please help these girls not go through what I went through and now because of all of my fighting for the children, I have never spoken this so out in the open, but I am now reliving my hell and it feels as it just happened to me. I really do not understand stand why this feels so real I never thought I would be facing my abuse again but I am living it, thanks to Bucks County Children and Youth. My fears of how I didn't have anyone helping me and how I do not want these girls to feel this way. We are alone; two of these girls were already returned and the last one will be returned soon. They removed her from my home because they said I spoke to someone about the case, Yes I did and I would do it again. However; are we not to put the children first and everything else second? Isn't that what we are trained to do? I lost my job and my friends are not allowed to speak to me because they were threatened to lose their jobs. Why is everyone so scared of losing their job? We are talking about children!!
Think of this. Everyone is worried about their job but my little ones are worried about when and if he is coming in there room. Everyone is telling me Kathy go to the media but when I speak up everyone runs in fear. I will not run. I am not fearful of Bev and Karen. They may have threatened me but they are not going to kill my soul. If you are for the children don’t go to Bev and Karen about this case. Go to Raven Hill, the school, her own mother’s words when they first came into care. Please help our family. Help us fight for these children, if not everything you say about children safety being first is the most important thing is just words. Doing the right thing is harder than letting things go and making waves.
